So this isn’t my 1st blog rodeo, I tried this after I had Jackson pre-Palmer and it fizzled. So the pressure is on (put on myself by myself) to make this work. My memory is the WORST, it’s probably the #1 thing I would change about myself so I’ve always wanted to start and *keyword* maintain a journal but the evidence is not in my favor. Now, even more than ever, I feel the need to document and process all the things that are happening in our family and within myself.

Mother’s Day was yesterday and this year was hard due to the fact that I should be giving birth to our 4th baby this week or in December but that’s not happening either. I didn’t expect it to be that hard and I’m not sure those around me did either. I was able to reach out to a friend that was in a similar situation, so if nothing else, maybe I was able to help another Momma out there. I want to put myself out there more.

I want this blog to be about all the things that are important to me and that I love. I’m not sure at 28, when I started the last blog, I really knew what those things were. I’m still trying to figure it all out but not trying again and again and again, if need be, is not an option anymore. I’ve learned some things about myself in recent years  (or weeks) that often once I fail at something I won’t put myself out there again. If I do, it’s half-assed so I can blame my failing on the fact that I didn’t give it 100% but that’s no way to live. It’s certainly not what I want to teach my kids. So here it goes, a new chapter, a new blog…